Sometimes you do get not what you need

With Blues in one hand, and worry in the other,
my hopes are broken, I do not have what I need,
only what I wanted, but, I need something not materialistic.

Whether I am talking about the perfect girl,
or a different life,
a few more friends,
or understanding,
I did get friends,
but my Heart still needs more healing,
and I just let it down, each and every time